sometimes it's just so hard to tell yourself to press on and leave those memories behind. you don't want the torture of remembering but the more you tell yourself you're not going to think about it, the more your brain floods your mind with it. the best way is to distract yourself from those times... and try to look forward to a better outcome and a better tomorrow.

we've all made decisions we regret. and it's been irritating me for a long time that i've let myself be manipulated by what my heart has been telling me. there have been days when i've been so emotional that only a good heartfelt cry has made me feel better. even the littlest thing can set me off. and then it started to make sense. that stress, pressure, been placing too much on myself. i mean, just chill. stuff like studying, doing homework, even if i've yet to start doing, why worry so much about it when the worrying's yet due? it's hard to express it because i don't want to sound like i'm slacking off (even more) or that it carries any less of an importance to me. it's just the idea of not worrying so much that's making me feel better.

sounds a bit like what will be, will be.

take time to live.

[edit] oh my god. i so don't want to get started on that source based question. get thee away from me.

gah! can you (refering to myself as i love talking in third person) just stop thinking about it and getting all happy or moody. stop screwing with your emotions, you sicko! must be a lust for pain. nah, somehow that seems a tad too extreme but you know what i mean!